Friday, May 30, 2008 @ 8:16 PM
APPARENTLY NOT
Apparently, my blog doesn't have a satisfying amount of words. so
fine. this post shall have minimal pictures and more words.
...
uhh...
alright so over the past few days, i've gotten into contact with some old friends again. man how i miss the times when we were so close. =\
anyhoo, started speaking to Benn PHUA again. i've missed out on a lot. now's he's all grown up! especially with his blog theme. so inspiring. (: PHUA, hope your friend gets better soon. remember. she's gotta emerge stronger than she is now. just like a butterfly. it has to struggle out of its cocoon so that its pretty little wings will be strong enough for it to fly. (: and so he's out skateboarding now. busted ankles? told him to be careful alr. =/
i won't be around for 2 days, PHUA. take care of yourself. haha.
JMO: i really really wanna work with you someday! you're a great dj. it'd be awesome if i could get the chance to! and i can't believe you're only 18 luh. lol thought you were like 25 or something. but your mohawk rocks. ;D hope to get to know you better. y' seem like a real nice guy. making more friends is goooood. networking, y'know. hah. xD
and Ben SNG:
oi tmd say best friend never treat like best friend siooool. update me la! lol. i just wanna know what's going on in your life. and you CAN afford to be nicer to people y'know. learn to
analyze the situation before you shoot your mouth off! not that you aren't a nice person. you are! just that you tend to be impatient >.> so yeah. haha. i want to go to the ZOO okay! not KBOX!
Liying! girl i've missed you. ): we should make the effort to catch up more often. haha. you still owe me starbucks! hmms. those contact lenses look quite tempting. xD
BRO! once again thank you for
always being there for me eh. ahaha. you never get pissed off at me one. don't know how you manage not to, espeically since i'm so irritating. =X haha. but then again i've never gotten angry at you either.but i AM sorry for disappointing you at times. =\
i love you
truckloads! AND YOU'RE OLD. 22. HAHA. =X
ANGEL! you're
really an
angel in disguise! I know we haven't been really that close over the past year or so til now. but ever since i...
err..'grew up', I've come to realise what a wonderful friend you are and I love you tons and tons and tons. (: let's take more random shots at playgrounds and such aye? ;D
going to malaysia TOMORROW! to KUKOP then to PULAI SPRINGS! with family (+ cousin's family) and bro's best friend + wife. roaaaaaaaaaaaad trip! gonna be filled with
racist jokes and hilarious
racist audio clips! hah.
hope it'll be fun. haven't had a holiday in ages. =\
wonder how I'm gonna be able to swim with my injured arm though.
one last thing.
I AM A LITTLE BUTTERFLY. FLY HIGH, FLY HIGH, BUTTERFLY.

why can't I breathe, whenever I think about you?
6:17 PM
phua rocks

i think PHUA just wanted to see that.
LOL.
-edited-
YES I'M AN EPIC MORON.
BUT I PWNED YOU, PHUA.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
2:53 PM
if i could fall into the sky
"If I could fall into the sky, do you think time would pass me by?"
Love of my life, my soulmate
You're my best friend
Part of me like breathing
Now half of me is left
I don't know anything at all
Who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you need me
Color me blue I'm lost in you
Don't know why I'm still waiting
Many moons have come & gone
Don't know why I'm still searching
Don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you need me
Hmmm hmmm mmm
Uhhh oohhh aahhh
Hooo aahhh ohh ohhh
Now you're a song I love to sing
Never thought it feels so free
Now I know what's meant to be
& that's okay with me
But who am I to say you love me
& who am I to say you need me?
& who am I to say you'll love me?
Mmmm Hmmm
I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you need me
I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all
screw all that.
let's just party.
2:05 PM
im walkin' away

;D
sometimes i wonder if i'm still your best friend. -sigh-
Tuesday, May 27, 2008 @ 10:26 PM
BEST FRIENDS
CAUTION: OLD PHOTOS AHEAD!I'm telling you. I love my best friends.
All of 'em. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you.
These words are my own~
xD

angelica! (:
bestest friend everrr.
;D
I'll never leave you alone. -grins-
illusive!the bestest crazy bunch a girl could ever ask for.
I love you girls TONS.
trina!what more can I say, daaaaahling?
xD
BRO!
thank you, thank you, thank you,
for ALWAYS, ALWAYS being there!
I love you truckloads! (:
Li Ying!Don't have to threaten to beat up people for me laaa.
I love j00! LOL.
forever and ever. (:

ben ben benny
BOY (:
my reality check, my one-man cheer squad, my BESTEST (guy) FRIEND EVER! I love you; always will, BEST FRIEND SNG! (:
OTHERS:
I APOLOGISE IF I DIDN'T PUT YOUR PHOTO HERE.
cuz I don't have/can't find one of you and me.
But I love you anyway! (:
3:15 PM
i fell
BY THE WAY. I FORGOT TO MENTION!
I FELL AGAIN TODAY.
this time it's the left elbow.
HAHAHAHA.
1:15 PM
THE GROUND LOVES ME
LONG POST!!
TAKEN FROM STEPH'S BLOG:
future bf quiz thing? O.o
1. Would you accept if he wears braces?
yeah duh. o.o
2. Do you allow your guy to smoke?
NO. but uh. if he did and if i really liked him, i would try and get him to quit.
3. Long or short hair?
as long as it's nice. preferably short than long tho =x
4. What if he's shorter than you but you love him a lot?
uh. actually i don't think it really matters. HE CAN BORROW MY HEELS. =x
5. What happens if your guy's parents don't like you?
uh. why wouldn't they? =\
6. Would you have sex with him if he request?
No.
7. What if your girlfriend's guy like you & vice versa?
I'd tell myself to get over it.
8. Single or double eyelid?
well. i don't really care. as long as it doesn't make him look retarded.
9. Gentle or arrogant?
GENTLE, definitely. as long as he's not too feminine!
10. How long would you be with him till you consider marriage?
at least 5 years. =\
11. What's the first thing that came to your mind when a guy request to be your boyfriend?
how long have i known this 'guy who requested to be my boyfriend'? that's a very vague question.
12. Would you rather want fat or skinny?
uh. can i not choose =\ okay fine. fat. teddy bear?
13. What if your boyfriend is poor?
i don't care! as long as he has money to eat and go see doctor if he's sick!
14. Would you accept the fact that your boyfriend date many girls previously?
well maybe that's his past. i'd trust that he's changed for the better! ^^
15. What are the things you look out for when you're hunting for guys?
a sense of humor? gentleman-ly traits? i dno. he just has to be nice? -__- and who HUNTS for guys?
16. Ever wonder what your guy say to his friends behind your back?
sometimes. BUT IT'D BETTER BE GOOD.
17. Where do you think your guy likes you the best?
uh. wha-? whaddya mean WHERE. it should be about WHO I AM, not what I..err..have.
18. What happens if you want a breakup but your guy refuses or vice versa?
i'd feel bad but i'd be firm about it.
19. Do you want a boyfriend now?
-shakes head- why would I?
20. Why?
cuz the time's just not right? -stares at quiz writer- "man, you ask really weird questions."
STOLEN FROM CHLO'S BLOG:
Clothes you wearWhat others see from your style
You probably live in your own little world and studiously avoid having to search for your own identity. You may feel that you are not loved, and being in your imaginary world is your way of coping with this. You get moody easily.
What your nightclothes reveal
You're in need of love. You want to be taken care of and panic easily. You have a strong wish for security in your life.
What others see from your ties
You are a caring people. You are romantic, witty, and easygoing. You compromise rather than confront, and love nature.
What others see from your belts
You are a kind of person who likes to hide your feelings. You may have a hot temper but tend to cover it with an outwardly calm and gentle demeanor. You are sensitive when it comes to love.
What others see from your shoes
You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.
What others see from your earrings
You are a sweet and talkative person. You are sociable, energetic and interesting, and get easily bored by the same old things. You are always looking for adventure.
The last analysis
You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.
Name 20 people you can think of right now.
Don't read the questions until you've named the 20 people.
At the end of this , choose 5 people to do this.
1. Angelica
2. Trina
3. Steph
4. Kieran
5. Chlo
6. Len
7. Ben
8. Seb
9. Liying
10. Denis
11. Daphne
12. Benn Phua
13. Donald
14. Weitong
15. Manfred
16. Haoming
17. Ian
18. Zi Xuan
19. Hwee Joo
20. Evon
How did you meet [6]?
LENerr..in sec one, in class..? was rather weird. but she rocks! ;D
What would you do if you never met [1]?
ANGELICAI would have never met my bestest friend ever.
What if [10] and [17] dated?
DENIS AND IANOMG CANNOT. LOL LOL LOL. [17] is taken!
Will [3] and [8] date?
Steph and Seb (HAHAHAHAHAHA)LOL NO. NEVER.
Describe [2].
TRINAShe's a...very interesting person. definitely hates school. a very good listener. (:
When is the last time you spoke to [19]?
HWEE JOO uh, in class today? she thanked me for giving her chocolate xD
What is [11]'s favourite band/singer?
DAPHNE uh. might be My Chemical Romance. not sure.
Would you ever date [4]?
KIERANNah. BROTHER! (:
Would you ever date [9]?
LI YINGhmm. maybe. LOL.
Is [13] still single?
DONALD NO. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
What is [18]'s last name?
ZI XUAN
YO! okay fine it's YEO.
Would you ever be in a relationship with [14]?
WEI TONGnever ever ever ever ever ever ever. O.o
School of [20]?
EVONMAYFLOWER SECONDARYY. CHEH MEH! xD
Where does [15] live?
MANFREDumm..i'm not sure. =\
What is your favourite thing of [12]?
BENN PHUA he's very amusing?
Have you ever seen [7] naked?
BEN SNG -__- stupid question. -doesn't bother answering-
5 people to do this quiz :
1. Liying
2. Evon
3. Benn Phua
4. Kieran
5. Daphs
Monday, May 26, 2008 @ 11:40 PM
myself
hmm saw people doing this so i was all 'heck let's give it a try i'm bored'
so here we go.
Get to know yourself:http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspxYour view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
lalala~
10:58 PM
after CHEENA OHs
awright. so oh lebel cheena paper won and too are over!
=D
it went okay but i know i screwed up.
=X
OH WELL.
*crosses fingers and prays for a B4 or at least C5 =\*
anyway.
went to watch CONGKAK at DOWNTOWN EAST today.
Here's a quick sypnosis.
Congkak 
"Rating: PG-Horror
Genre: Action / Drama / Horror / Sci-Fi / Thriller
Language: Malay with English and Chinese subtitles
Director: Ahmad Idham
Cast: Nanu Baharudin, Erynne Erynna, Riezman Khuzaimi, Erin Malek, Ruminah Sidek
M. Rajoli
Running Time : 78 mins
The story begins when Kazman (Riezman Khuzaimi) and wife (Nanu Baharuddin) decides to go for a holiday with their children, Lisa and Elly. Their holiday destination is a bungalow by a lake, which Kazman had promised to buy from his friend.
When they arrive at the bungalow, mysterious and ominous events unfold. Sufiah tries to convince Kazman to leave but to no avail. Sufiah cannot shake off the feeling that something is stalking her. To add to the peculiarity, their daughter, Lisa (Erynne Erynna) makes nightly trips to the dark room downstairs to play Congkak with a mysterious playmate that can only be seen by her. Lisa’s strange behaviour quickly extends to daytime. She starts playing with her seemingly non-existent playmate near the forests at the back of the bungalow. She proclaims to Kazman that her playmate stays in the forest grounds. To Kazman’s fright, he realizes that the forest plays host to an old cemetery,
Too spooked, Sufiah throws the Congkak into the lake, but the next night, she awakens to the sound of the Congkak game from the same room. Worried for Lisa, she decides to look in the dark room. Instead of finding Lisa, she sees the figure of an old woman playing the Congkak. Things only get worse from here as more and more bone-chilling occurrences take place. It all cumulates to a climax as Lisa & Elly both disappear and Sufiah is possessed by an evil spirit. It is now up to Kazman to seek help to save his family.
The Village Elder, Pak Tua (M. Rajoli), volunteers his services in this epic fight of good versus evil. What dark secrets lie behind the bungalow? Will the doomed family survive this ill-omened ordeal or will this holiday be their last?"
yeah. quite scary. but at the same time quite funny. at times too 'power ranger/dragon ball Z' like, "
aguden!" << or something like that. heh. ok la over all the spesh effects for the flick were like too fake. skin disease? hmm. got like orbs of some power force thing. LOL.
a tad on the unrealistic side, or else this would've been quite okay for S$7.50.
=\
anyhoo, i guess i should've known what i was getting myself into when i fell for him over 6 months ago.oh well.
c'est la vie. that's life.
i'm gonna do my best to try and move on.
Sunday, May 25, 2008 @ 8:28 PM
NEVER LOOKING BACK AGAIN

I'm leavin', never lookin' back again.
I'm gonna LIVE MY LIFE the way I want to.
I'm gonna ACE THE O LEVELS and
PROVE EVERYONE WRONG
I'm going to CONCENTRATE.
No more DISTRACTIONS.
I won't go back to how I USED TO LIVE.
I'M LEAVING, NEVER LOOKING BACK AGAIN.
Don't like it? THEN GO AWAY. (:
Friday, May 23, 2008 @ 9:20 PM
jump!


rock on!
it's just like a milo can!
*grabs butt* LOL NOT REALLY.
saved the best for last:
jump!with that, I bid you farewell for today.

"
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life."
Thursday, May 22, 2008 @ 9:12 PM
Dr. William Tan : RIDE FOR HOPE

Dr. William Tan's racing gloves.
hmm. been meaning to blog about this.
shall get down to it.
Recently, Dr. William Tan came to Mayflower Sec to give the secondary 4s/5s a motivational talk. Okay so at first, when we walked into the hall, we saw this man sitting on a wheel chair on stage.

So he seemed like any other man , just sitting on a wheel chair.
Little did we all know that he was actually diagnosed with polio, leaving him paralyzed from the waist down, and it had been so ever since he was only 2 years old...for the rest of his life.
When he was little, he was sent to kindergarten like any of us-but only because his mother begged the school to let him in. Several schools had rejected him because no school was well equipped enough to accept a wheelchair bound kid. But one school did. Despite his parents' efforts, he blew it. People called him names, threw stuff at him and ran away. He couldn't go after them because he was wheel chair bound, so he waited for their hands to be near enough, and then he bit them. Soon, the kindergarten expelled him for biting too many people. Once again, his parents went knocking on the doors of kindergartens nation wide. This time, the rejections were abundant not because he was wheelchair bound, but because he bit people. But one school accepted him. Yet he was expelled again. >.>
So he stayed home and sewed fishnets. He earned 50 cents per fishnet. Not much right? So his parents decided that they didn't want their child to live his life sewing fishnets.
They began looking for a primary school.
His track record already wasn't very impressive, so when he got accepted into one primary school, Selegie Primary, he decided to work his butt off.
His teacher told him to aim for R.I
So he did.
Oh by the way, some where around this time, he decided he wanted to walk. He got blisters in his palms and...under his arms while trying so hard. But he did it. (:
TODAY,
Dr William Tan, brain scientist is best known for his fund-raising efforts for the disabled and needy through wheelchair ultramarathons.
Over the last 18 years, he has helped raised more than S$14 million for various charitable organizations, locally and internationally.
Notwithstanding his disability which confines him to a wheelchair, Dr Tan has shown outstanding strength and perseverance in overcoming adversities.
Academically, he had his Secondary and Pre-University education at Raffles Institution.
Holder of a First Class Honours degree in Physiology, this Harvard University’s Fulbright Scholar and Oxford University’s Chevening Scholar has trained and worked in various countries including the Mayo Clinic in the United States, the United Kingdom, Australia, New Zealand and Singapore.

Dr Tan is also an accomplished sportsman.

A Singapore wheelchair marathon champion, he has competed in many international games including the 1988 Seoul Paralympics, the Commonwealth Games as well as the Asia-Pacific Games. Last April, he competed in both the London Marathon and Boston Marathon within a week, which is a rare accomplishment.
In 1987, he realized that, "
winning medals, trophies or prize money should not be an end to itself. It should be a means to further goodness and to help people." Since then, he has devoted to championing as well as fundraising for needy causes in Singapore, Malaysia, Thailand, Indonesia, Australia, New Zealand, the United States and the United Kingdom. He has skydived, water-skied, sailed and even climbed a 14-storey building to raise money.
Some of his ultramarathon endeavours included wheelchair pushes across the length of New Zealand, Singapore to Penang, Thailand to Singapore, Boston to New York to Washington DC.
For his outstanding local and international contributions in humantarian and community service, Dr Tan was given the Singapore Youth Award, the highest national youth honour in Singapore in 1995 and the Outstanding Young Persons of Singapore Award in 1996.
To acknowledge Dr Tan's altruistic efforts in championing the cause of the disabled, the Tan Tock Seng Hospital set up the
"Dr William Tan Scholarship in Rehabilitation Medicine", the first named scholarship in the Hospital's 151-year history.
He had also received widespread international recognition including the Outstanding Young Persons of the World Award (Humanitarian/ Voluntary Leadership) given by the Junior Chamber International, USA in 1997; the Commonwealth Youth Award for Excellence in Youth Work in 1998 and the ASEAN Youth Award in 2000.
In the following year, he was given the
Albert Schweitzer (Nobel Peace Prize Laureate) Prize awarded by Harvard University for a graduating student whose past work and current activities have been marked by a "reverence for life" and who has sought, as expressed by Schweitzer, to "make my life my argument."
In 2003, he was honoured with the Reader's Digest Inspiring Asian Award which “recognize deserving individuals who must be able to demonstrate that they have made a difference or are making a difference and are encouraging others to do so”.
Dr Tan is the first person in the world to undertake a wheelchair push in Antarctica as part of his seven continents’ global challenge in 70 days.He has broken the Guinness World Record of 99 days in 1999, to raise funds for childhood cancer.
The Seven Marathons on Seven Continents for the Guinness World Record Attempt are:
18th February 2005: Eygptian Marathon (AFRICA)
26th Feb: Antarctica Marathon (ANTARCTICA)
6th March: Fin Del Mundo Marathon (SOUTH AMERICA)
13th March: Rome Marathon (EUROPE)
26th March: Xiamen Marathon, China (ASIA)
10th April: Canberra Marathon (AUSTRALIA)
18th April: Boston Marathon (NORTH AMERICA)
-In 2005,
Dr William Tan completed 10 marathons over seven continents and raised US$1million to set up a professorship in paediatric oncology at the National University of Singapore.
-He recently became the
first person in the world to
complete the Arctic Marathon on wheels.
42.2 km race in 21 hours and 10 minutes.
"woooo hoooooooo!"
He braved extreme weather to raise funds for Global Flying Hospital, a non profit that provides medical care to those in urgent need.
Dr William Tan’s tremendous determination and fighting spirit in making virtue out of his adversity, serves as a constant source of inspiration not only to the disabled but also to the community at large.

me shaking his hand! xD
Latest update: Dr. William Tan will be next attempting to complete 16 marathons over 49 days on all the continents.
He also wrote a book! Ya'll should read it. (:

In a nutshell? He's super successful due to hardwork, determination, an unbelievable amount of belief in his ability to get where he wants to be, and courage.
he rocks.
and so do all of you!
加油 for the up coming mother tongue o levels everyone! & for the rest of the year/ your lives too!
you can do it! (:
Wednesday, May 21, 2008 @ 12:49 AM
sichuan earthquake.
China: Sichuan earthquake relief update, May 19Up to May 18, 9:00 pm, total
death toll:
34,073,
injured:
245,108.
China today began a 3-day national mourning for the tens of thousands of people killed in a powerful earthquake which struck the country's southwest on May 12. This afternoon at 2:28, in our Nanjing offices, Amity staff, volunteers and donors who were present stood in silent tribute in Amity's courtyard facing Wenchuan, Sichuan Province, to mourn the victims.
Front Line:
Amity staff on the ground have decided to focus their relief work in certain rural areas of Sichuan. From our assessment in the disaster zone, emergency relief supplies from all over the country have been mainly delivered to urban areas. It is estimated that the supply is near to meeting the basic needs. However, outlying rural areas have not received as much attention. Amity plans to coordinate self-help teams among the villages themselves to help. As we get a better understanding of the basic information and needs, more systematic post-disaster relief work will then be implemented.
Today, He Wen, Yue Yaomeng and Zheng Ye, together with Leo Lu Kwongfai and Mr. Shu Heng came to Bolin township to distribute quilts, and held a meeting with more than 70 victims in the village. In the afternoon, Amity staff went to Deyang Township of Deyang City to get more understanding of the situation for the next stage of post-disaster relief work.
The searching and emergency rescue work by the military and professional rescuers is drawing towards an end.
There's this one boy. One little boy amidst all this chaos that truly demonstrated courage and deep understanding of the situation.
He told the soldiers to rescue the rest of his classmates first, even though he was covered in blood and his body was protecting them
I salute him.
As I do the soldiers/rescuers/relatives.
WATCH THIS: http://youtube.com/watch?v=bslFd-zx03c
I pray that the trauma of this tragedy will soon come to pass. I pray that your grief be lifted, even slightly.
AND LET ME GIVE YOU ALL A WAKE UP CALL.
All of us are so damn lucky to be in the situations we are in now.
None of us really know what is "死了啦" (die le la) and none of us knows what
true love is.
So we'd all better friggin' APPRECIATE what we've got.
Cuz those people stuck in the rubble as a result of the earthquake in Sichuan have persevered SO HARD.
We aren't even worthy of saying we know what
perseverance is. We can't even describe it.
so, thank God for all that you have. love every moment of every day.
BECAUSE LIFE IS SO UNPREDICTABLE.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008 @ 10:41 PM
hweejoo! ian!
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday toHui Ru and Ian,
happy birthday to you!
7:30 PM
ehmagawd i screwed up english!
EHMAGAWD.
I screwed up ENGLISH and COMBINED HUMANITIES.
I
totally SCREWED my
MID-YEARS.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
English p1- a2.
after p2-b4.
b4.B4.
what the f**k?!
Chinese ya'll know i flunked (as usual)
but ZOMG
I failed COMBINED HUMANITIES!
AND I THINK I GOT LIKE,
E8.
WTFUX.i NEED to start studying
history&social studies!
ANYWAY,
GEOGRAPHY mock exam went reasonably well today. I hope I'll be able to get at least an a2! ><
shucks, I seriously need to get down to work.
2 hours revision a day shall be my minimum.
here we go!
CHIONGGGGGG!guys = priority.
Sunday, May 11, 2008 @ 7:16 PM
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry, i don't know what else to say/do. it's the only thing i can think of. i know i'm doing almost exactly what happened to me, but now i finally understand what happened. maybe not why it happened, but definitely what.
i'm sorry, i just want to save you.
12:14 AM
happy mothers day!
FIRST OF ALL,

TO
YAN!
it's belated, I'm so sorry!
SECONDLY,

where would we all be without you? (:
i'm beginning to see. yet i don't want to see. i don't know what i want.
help me.
Saturday, May 10, 2008 @ 12:26 PM
roar.
i need to
study.
i need inspiration.
Friday, May 9, 2008 @ 10:58 PM
why?
why did everything come rushing in at such an unlikely timing?
why're you here now, of all times?
why?
why?
why?
why's everything so messed up?
why can't i think straight?
i want.
i can't have.
i wish.
i can't do.
i'm lost.
6:53 AM
thanks but no thanks
i really appreciate having kevonne in my life right now, because i'm depending on him to cheer me up. and so far, he's done a brill job. cheer up kev, everything's gonna be just fine. (:
ben, if you still regard me as your friend- i'm not even asking for much, not even best friend status-, then, well...please start treating me like one. seeing our friendship come this far but only to fail now is a complete waste. don't tire yourself out too much in poly. (:
trina-girl, what can i say. you've been there countless of times. i hope you feel the same way too. i love you.
steph-the same to you. God bless. thank you.
chlo- cheer up eh. i know gastric flu hurts. keep that immune system up! thank you, too, for being there.
len- one of the girls who can always brighten my day. your bubbly persona is contagious. it's a good thing. (:
angel- 6 years, girl. and we're still as tight. you have no idea how much i love you.
i don't know why i'm typing this. just felt like it.
oh well.
physics test today.
ttyl.
-off to school.-
Thursday, May 8, 2008 @ 5:48 PM
happy birthday

TO NI TA DI, VERISIA, NICHOLAS (MOO!)...and whoever's birthday is today! xD
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO DENISE SEAH, AMANDA ONG..and whoever else!
HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO MANFRED(I); whoever's born on the 9th as well!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. (:
5:13 PM
-sigh-.
i'm just a mess you left behind,
an err forgot, over time,
just to say this one last line,
just make time for this last rhyme.
I'll never forget your carefree laugh,
Head thrown back, voice but rough.
I'll never forget your butterfly kisses,
down my neck, filled with misses.
For our meetings sporadic though oft,
I'll never forget your hands, so soft.
Your scent a comfort late at night,
Your presence, my life, extremely bright.
Lest we forget each other though,
I'd like to tell you, I love you so.
So let us just have this last dance,
To make this memory one that lasts.
so just end my suffering. return to norm. it hurts less.
please.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008 @ 10:26 PM
blah
i'm too lazy to blog today.
Monday, May 5, 2008 @ 7:52 PM
owwww.
I GOT CHASED BY A DOG WHILE ON THE WAY TO SCHOOL TODAY.
suay.Then at AMK Hub today, GUESS WHO I SAW.
MOCHI.
ROFL.
anyway.
Dudes, my right shoulder is hurting like
hell. Probably because I walked around town for 7 hours plus today. Lol. Went to AMK Hub with angel & trina first though, went to Mini Toons and bought a really cute keyboard sticker set thing. (which I'm probably never going to use until I get a laptop of my own. xD) I only bought it because angel, being angel, ripped out a whole lot and it all fell to the ground. Luckily no one saw it. Feeling bad, we all bought one each.
Anyway. Went to buy bubble tea after that. Then angel went home to study chem. ( so hardworking. >.>) Well, she probably has to take care of her mom too luh. So nvm.
Went to town with trina after that. On the way, there was this
extremely hot looking Italian (?) guy. He was quite tall,
very fit, had
amazing PURPLE and METALLIC SILVER hair, smelled
heavenly, had
mesmerizing eyes with
incredibly long lashes, and dressed very well in a form fitting grey tank top and black/tan jeans, with a dog tag. He's soooooooo
HOT, but he was wearing a
WINNIE THE POOH landyard. HAHAHAHA.
-ahem-.
Moving on.
Hit The Heeren stores first, and after going gaga over the really cute necklaces at Fourskin (but not buying any) and walking around Heeren like 2 times over, we proceeded to Cineleisure. Bought a set of earrings from Diva for only SGD$2.50. HAHA. Original price? SGD$13.00. ^^
They're all pretty and are mismatched!
Then we went to Takashimaya, where we spent hours on end looking at incredibly cute things! I bought Nick his birthday present, and then we proceeded to Art Friend. Didn't really find much stuff there, so we went on to look around that floor. OH, let me tell you, there's this REALLY COOL notebook place up there. They sell files and bookmarks too. They're sooooo beautiful, but oh so expensive! Definitely has a better range than Prints though. Still, Prints is more affordable, although both shops sell their products at around the same price range. (SGD$20+ to SGD$100+?) But that shop sold stuff for like, $47 for a normal-ish looking notebook. (fabric, though.)
ANYWAY, we ended up going through shops meant for little kids because we were REALLY bored. Ended up in Kino eventually. I bought this black notebook for SGD$1.60, and a white pen that costs SGD$2.35. (gosh, the pen cost more x.x) but it was worth it. ^^
By the time we finished shopping for nick's presents and were done looking around, it was roughly 6.30pm? Rushed back by train and then a cab. (for me.) The stupid cab ride cost me SGD$7.00, but it was okay, seeing as I had a good day in the end. ^^
I'd just like to say that I wake up every morning feeling like crap, not wanting to go to school,
feeling fucking empty inside (it's extremely scary, because I've never felt this emptiness before),
but yet I force myself to go on living each day as per normal,
because I know that's the only way you'll be okay. The last thing I want to do is to hurt you.
iloveyou.
Sunday, May 4, 2008 @ 6:23 PM
so tell me.

It's okay if you treat me normally, but when i think of what you said, i get upset all over again. really, what's the difference? or are you just afraid of the prospect? are you just...avoiding reality? i just need to know.
stay with me.
1:57 PM
Nuttin No Go So!

DANCE DANCE DANCE.
ROCK. IT. OUT.
SING. IT. OUT.
SCREAAAAAAAAM IT OUT!DAAAAAAANCE YOUR WORRIES AWAY!IT WORRRRRRRRRRKS. xD
11:47 AM
ben.

Someone Asked Me If I Knew You;
A million memories flashed through my head
& i laughed and said "i used to."
"the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is
because memories are the only thing that won't change
when everything else does."
"There's always going to be that one person, where no matter what he does, what he says, how many times he hurts you, you just can't let him go because he means that much to you."
He's mine but not really...
I never really had him so.
I never really lost him.
I guess this is how we'll always be.
I had him, and he had me.
But then again,
there's no "US" really...!
I'm in love but he doesn’t care. maybe he does but it's not enough. maybe he thinks I'm wonderful, fun and nice but not enough. maybe he does like me, but not enough, not enough to let down his guard and take risk. and knowing that nothing is enough, IT'S ENOUGH REASON FOR ME TO SLOWLY LET GO. STOP not because I’m HURTING, not because I’m sad or scared but because he doesn't give me any reasons to stay… =’(
have you ever lost someone so close to your heart
and
you didn’t even tryto make him stay?
have you ever wished that you
could
turn back the time when it was still
you and him?
would you take back
those painful words
you’ve
said and ask for another chance?
or you’ll
just watch him
blow his last kiss
and
bid you the most heartbreaking word "goodbye."
1:41 AM
zsdjcfd
screw it. i can't do this.
12:20 AM
lala
12:09 AM
YOU KNOW WHAT
JOKE!!!!! XDDDDDD LOL LOL LOL.

you know what?!
WHY'M I MOPING ABOUT FOR?!
i shouldn't be destroying something that took so long to build -__-
I SHALL BE HAPPY.
I SHALL BE NORMAL.
I SHALL BE A GOOD BEST FRIEND.
^^
Saturday, May 3, 2008 @ 11:17 PM
sigh.

if i should die before i wake
it's cuz you took my breath away
losing you is like
living in a world with no air
how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
cuz my world revolves around you
it's so hard for me to breathe.
you've crushed my world.
10:36 PM
broken.
9:25 PM
you are my soul revival.
i edited the words to fit my current state.
Waiting for your call,
I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call
I'm desperate for your voiceListening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
(Like when we would meet)
Cause
I was born to tell you I love youAnd
I am torn to do what I have to, to get over you
Stay with me tonight
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Cause
I was born to tell you I love youAnd
I am torn to do what I have to,
to get over youStay with me tonight
Cause
I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to get over you
Stay with me tonight
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
-how do you destroy what you love the most?
-how do you talk about it if the one who you need the most, is the one who suffocated your last desperate breath?
-how do i get over you?
i am torn to do what i have to, to get over you.stay with me tonight.
tis' the way